When I started this blog, I had an idea what I wanted it to look like, what I wanted it to be like, simply from reading other people's blogs. But it has become more than I could have imagined. Not because I've hit it big and I'm fighting off advertisers and book deals. No, this whole blogging endeavor has connected me with so many interesting, supportive people. People that are my friends now. It's given me opportunities to flex my creative muscle and get paid for it. It's given me the opportunity to share and write my guts out.
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| I vow to never wear this shirt again---it's in so many posts. These were headshots I had taken at BlissDom. They were free, so I couldn't say "excuse me, do you mind waiting while I go change?" |
While writing and sharing and making friends and a little extra money (lol, extra money? hahaha, there's no extra money w/four kids ever!) over the past couple years, I've also grown up a little. That doesn't mean I've stopped watching immature (somewhat offensive) comics on YouTube or that I have many answers. It does mean that I'm less apologetic for my love of silly things and my emotionality. It does mean that I've accepted that my niche isn't perfect craft tutorials and that my fashion is a little stuck in the eighties. I'm more okay with myself than ever before.
Sharing and writing my guts out has helped me let go of a lot of fear. Fear of judgement from others and myself. Fear of being wrong, stupid, a bad writer, a bad thinker, too emotional, too immature, too not perfect, etc.
When I started my vlog? That was a completely different story. I mean sharing and writing is one thing, bu shooting video of me, talking to me, editing video of me, it seemed like just way too much me.
In college, I took a literature performance class and they video-taped us. We had to watch the video and critique our own performance. After watching myself, I went into a mini depression. I wasn't what I thought I was at all. My voice sounded like Punky Brewster. How could anyone stand to listen to me? Why hadn't I noticed that my eyes slanted down so much or that my hair was just completely wrong? Was I really that short?
I was so unkind to myself. I actually got depressed for a few days. I wasn't in front of a camera for probably about 8 years. Not until I was pregnant with my first child and we got a fancy new video camera. I was a little kinder to myself because I was all about the baby. But of course I couldn't help but mentally criticize my weight.
But since I started vlogging for my very own YouTube channel, I've gotten less critical.
Just like blogging, vlogging has led to self-acceptance. I don't notice the wrinkles or the crooked teeth very much(but I did give a lecture to my kids about wearing their retainers post-braces based on video evidence of me not doing so). I don't watch every video and analyze my face or my voice. Because it's about sharing and connecting and being creative and being open and intentional and funny and real.
YouTube is a whole new fun playground to connect with other parents and moms and women. We share jokes, stories, parenting advice, political passions and more.
Every Wednesday, I link up with Mama Kat's Vlogging Prompts.
Here's the intro video I made when I first started vlogging last July. It's funny how much I've learned about vlogging, lighting, editing since last summer. It's also fun to see how much the kids have grown and changed. Check it out:
(If you are an email subscriber, click this link to watch the http://youtu.be/wQNCvf1xPAk)
I'm having a pretty great time vlogging, come check me out and subscribe to my channel. I've hovered around 44 (gaining subscribers and then losing them and then gaining them) for a while, but would love to hit 50 before May 1.
Last week, I got my first mean, semi-vicious comment that involved a few of F-bombs over a review of Skechers shoes. The commenter told me to leave Skechers alone and get a life. Um, I think I'm legit folks. Woo-hoo!
If you feel like subscribing and/or leaving a nice comment that would make my legit-ness that much sweeter.
I'm having a pretty great time vlogging, come check me out and subscribe to my channel. I've hovered around 44 (gaining subscribers and then losing them and then gaining them) for a while, but would love to hit 50 before May 1.
Last week, I got my first mean, semi-vicious comment that involved a few of F-bombs over a review of Skechers shoes. The commenter told me to leave Skechers alone and get a life. Um, I think I'm legit folks. Woo-hoo!
If you feel like subscribing and/or leaving a nice comment that would make my legit-ness that much sweeter.
Here are a few of the other most-watched videos on my YouTube channel:
My 20th High School Reunion
My 20th High School Reunion
(If you are an email subscriber, click this link to watch the http://youtu.be/VwhmhDuW-A4)
Dance Lessons
Me Time/Home Alone
(If you are an email subscriber, click this link to watch the video http://youtu.be/X-9UsG6cCIM)







