Friday, March 13, 2015

Showing Up & What I Know For Sure This Week

Life feels blurry right now. Blurry and busy.  I feel like we are racing from one thing to another all.the.time.  I feel like I am trying so hard to make it to the games to see the moments, catch the plays, cheer them on, cheer them up and just BE there.

It's not bad, just busy and exhausting.  I'm so happy that all the kids are involved in stuff.  I just have a hard time keeping up with all the stuff.  

I like having time to play and relax and explore and dance and be a hippie and go on road trips and paint and ahhhhh.  We could do all of that more when all the kids were babies because well, they had no choice (ha!).

This was a text message I sent Tim this past week telling him that I needed summer and all the things I  love so much.  I was in a very emoji mood.  I don't think there is any better way to describe who I am than that emoji text I sent Tim. LOL!

It's all sort of about me letting go and letting my kids have their own interests and their own lives.  It's also about trying to balance getting them to all their interests and still having time for my own.  It's about being a cliche, the taxi mom driving a minivan.  It's about having four kids and even if they only do one activity after school that's four different places we need to be.  It's about the ebbs and flows in life, I know this is a particularly busy, hectic time.  I know it won't last, but it will go fast.

So, I nap in the car and email messages about my storytelling show from my phone while I wait for the kids to get out of a practice.  I drive around with the sun shining on my face pretending we are on a road trip and that it's summertime.  

I make it to the games, I race around, I get there,I cheer them on and I cheer them up because I love them.  It's exhausting and I may not agree with year-round baseball on principle, but I show up (maybe not on time but you know...) because I know for sure that supporting my kids and my family and making sure they know that I love them is exactly where I want to be.

Here's what else I know for sure this week:

(Click here to watch the video.)

  • Brothers are awesome.  I love that all my boys get along even though they are so different and so varied in age. 
I found them all in my room watching basketball (and Peyton was trying to do homework).

March madness...

  • I love having shorter hair.  The longer bob is perfect because it takes less time to dry but I can still pull it into a ponytail.

  • I LOVE Madonna (and her new album) even if she hates my town.  I posted a review of it the day after she went on Howard Stern's show saying my town (her old hometown) was basically full of stupid people.  HA! But I dont' care, I love her and her music.  Honestly, I think she doesn't like her hometown because she didn't fit in and it was full of bad memories.  I get it.  I feel the same way about my's not the town or the people, it's what went down with my family and the bad memories.  Click here to read my review.

  • Dancing can make you smarter. Yup.  My dad sent this to me and I love it. All my kitchen dancing is really going to pay off.

  • Snow melting means time to get the bikes out.

What do YOU know for sure this week, right now?  Tell me here or over on my Facebook page.

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  1. LOL. Ryan and I were talking about the Madonna interview, too. She can hate it here; it's not the right place for everyone, but I hope I can make it a place my kids look at fondly when they are older :)

  2. You are staying so healthy with all that dancing you do. And the emoji text is TOTALLY you, for sure. Not to mention you completely rock that LTYM hat!